I don't understand how things are supposed to go back to normal.

Last week was so surreal.  I was home every night.  Everyone was there.

But now I'm back at school for the whole week and I thought I would be okay, but I'm not.  I can't seem to get back to a normal routine.  It seems so wrong to be acting as if everything is normal.  And I can't stop crying.

I'm not ready to go back to my life.

I miss her.